CANCER… FAITH… SURVIVAL

A very good friend of mine dropped a book on me during my time of “insanity” last year, But I had already received a memoir-LOVE WARRIOR. And I couldn’t put it away. So, I had mine time with it.

Dying to be me by Anita Moorjani. It is basically about a woman who survived cancer in a way that science cannot prove. The doctors were ready to give up on her. Dr. Wayne W. Dyer on the foreword said, “We are not these bodies; we’re neither our accomplishments nor our possessions—we are all one with the Source of all being,

which is God.”

For the writer, Anita, this is the purpose of this book: To ignite the spark of magnificence that lies within you. My desire is to awaken the dormant guru within you that guides you to find your own place at the centre of the universe. It’s my hope that you find joy in each and every day”

From the book- This is what I read, saw, learnt and realised:
  1.  As she was rushed into the hospital, she began to see her family crying and everyone worried. She couldn’t understand why all of that because she was feeling free, and happy, and healed, and at peace. And this is what she realised, “Everything is still perfect in the greater tapestry of life, for we never truly die.”
  2.  When she was younger she was taken Catholic school, which she left after some incidents (She is INDIAN and HINDU) and she was told here that if she didn’t go to church she was going to hell. Her mother said to her, “Don’t be scared, Beta. No one really knows the truth—not even Sister Mary. Religion is just a path for finding truth: Religion is not truth. It is just a path. And different people follow different paths.”
  3. Two of the people she knew had been killed by cancer, right in front of her eyes. She then began to research and research about ways to prevent it. The real issue is that once we fear something, it is most likely that we will suffer the reality of that fear.
  4.  She said, “Our physicality also limits our perception of the space around us, confining us to only what our eyes and ears can see and hear or to what we can touch, smell, or taste. However, without the limitations of my body, I took in all points of time and space as they pertained to me, all at once.”
  5.  She also pointed out and question as she was in that state of consciousness, “Why do I suddenly understand all this? I wanted to know. Who’s giving me this information? Is it God? Krishna? Buddha? Jesus? And then I was overwhelmed by the realization that God isn’t a being, but a state of being . . . and I was now that state of being!
  6. The very that we often do, personify God, and conceptualize, or worse have a fixed idea that God possess a certain gender.
  7.  She further said, “I understood that I owed it to myself, to everyone I met, and to life itself to always be an expression of my own unique essence. Trying to be anything or anyone else didn’t make me better—it just deprived me of my true self!”
  8.  The regrets we’d most probably have include:
    • not allowing ourselves to be true versions of our own being.
    • Not following our own beautiful hearts and speak the truth.
    • Suppressing our creativity to please others.
    • Beating ourselves up.
    • Violating ourselves by seeking approval of ourselves from others.
  9. We are enveloped with unconditional love and acceptance. The fact that we exist makes us worthy and that we never needed to work at being lovable.
  10. She believed that Cancer had been a manifestation of all her many fears and great power.
  11.  As she experienced her NDE. She met her late father – a very controlling, expectant, and culturally conditioned-BUT THIS WAS NOT THE CASE ANYMORE- HE HAD ONLY LOVE FOR HER. SOMETHING SHE NEVER EXPERIENCED BEFORE.
  12. She then had to make a choice after talking to her father, going back to the body or not. But she had realised then, that she was called for something greater. The issue is not to figure it out, however to let it unfold.
  13.  By merely being true love that God and we are, we can heal ourselves and the world.
  14. Before deciding to go back to life this happened. Her two friends (together with their groups) and her mom were already praying and chanting. One friend was Buddhists, meaning the other group was Buddhist. The other was Catholics and the mother had made a way to the Hindu Temple. And she eventually did decide to come back to life. NOTE: Everyone was praying to their own personal God- or rather a universal God but differently.

This the bit I got in the first eleven chapters of the book, I’ll have some review of the remaining after I finished with it. The near-death experience had given her a sense of purpose.

And then a friend of mine, the one who dropped the book on me asked:

Do you think the Near-Death Experience is the only way to know your purpose?

NO- I don’t think so. I think the Spirit of God guides us. Remember that we are trinities- BODY, MIND AND SPIRIT. The problem is that we are too loud – our minds are on speed and restless. We are never quiet. THAT IS WHY THE “BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD.” verse. I don’t really think it’s some advice to help people in their time of difficulties, you know believe that God is God and He’ll take care of it. I honestly believe it is meant to be a moment by moment thing. Not speaking, but just listening to the sound of our breathing. Then we can be clearer. God will speak because then we’d be silent. And then we’d just do the next right thing, and the next right thing, and the next right thing. I just believe that churches should be more about spiritual awakening than they are religious. Spirituality is further not restricted. It is personally pursued. And it is universal – JUST LIKE GRACE. IF IT IS PERSONAL THEN IT IS UNIVERSAL. I really think that is what Church should emission to do. Not how many people can into church and expand it. Not how many people we get to behave good on earth, and get to heaven later. Rather, let’s help people be more conscious of God that they can’t do anything except believing in Him and that because God is God, will guide them in all-encompassing peace, joy, hope, faith and most importantly THE TRUTH.

The second one asked:

Do you think it happens with everyone that they meet their deceased?

I don’t know. I once heard Joyce Meyer talking about it, I was probably in grade 11. She was basically explaining the ‘hearing from God’ issue. That it is not like she hears some voices anytime, and so she has seen and met people who have met Jesus and spoken to Him and had great testimonies about it.
So really, maybe it’s who you have conceptualised as your messenger to God – or God as presence, because we are all part of that Spirit.

Last year I told my, then 8-year-old, little brother this: God loves you right? But do not limit Him in only thinking He is a father. I believe in God that has no form or gender and I think it is very demeaning for us to have a fixed idea of what God should look like. We cannot afford to degrade nor limit Him.

He said, “But the bible displays him as a father.”

He is a father, but not only a father. He is what He is. At any time. Or She is what you want her to be or what you need in your life always. He was a father to the people who wrote it, but that might be true to you.”

I am hungry. You’re not? Can we talk about this again in the future I think I am tired.” He said and left.

I am still waiting for the future. He never ate nor slept. He went to go play. I really think I should ask him over the weekend on whether is he still tired and hungry, so we can continue.

I loved these two phrases from the book:
1. I knew that was really the only purpose of life: to be our self, live our truth, and be the love that we are.

2. As though to confirm my realization, I became aware of both my father and Soni (The friend who died of cancer) communicating to me: Now that you know the truth of who you really are, go back and live your life fearlessly!”

And I think it is important for all of us. LIVING FEARLESSLY, WITH OUR OWN TRUTHS AND LOVING. KNOWING GOD IS GOD AND HE OR SHE CHOSE TO BE GOD OUR TOMORROW IS ALREADY AFFIRMED.
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